I guess that's why they call it a JOURNEY!!!!!!!

I just got back from my first walk, my first step toward the Houston Half-Marathon, and boy do I have a long journey ahead of me! I always use that word, but this time it's begining to mean something to me!!!!

Let's just say this first...I am very proud of myself for setting the clock and getting up and going. It is very hard at this stage in the game to see how what I am doing right now is EVER going to turn into anything else. How is a big, fatgirl like me going to run in a half-marathon? It doesn't add up. It's one of those leaps of faith that I hear about. But I'm gonna take it. I'm going to trust in myself that I will stay on this program and continue to eat healthy and exercise and that there will be benefits.

About the walk:
It was just a WALK...right?...right? It was just a little walk...RIGHT? Then why do I feel like I have been dragged behind a truck? I was very excited and motivated at first, but by the end, I felt like...like..well...like I was being dragged behind a truck!!!!!!!!!

I just can't believe how out of shape I am, but I am not going to dwell on that. I am going to trust that one day, in a few months, I will be running down the road, having a great run and smiling at my accomplishments with the anxiety of this day far behind me.

I brought Thunder with me. He LOVES to be active. He comes from a working line, so he's not a very affectionate dog. He just loves to move. He wasn't entirely satisfied at today's walk because if it were up to him, we'd have been moving a lot faster than what we were!!!! But, I loved having him with me.

I also loved my music. I burned a CD the other night... Remember...? I told you when I was doing that :) Pay attention!!! :) Anyway, I need new batteries in my cd player, but I'm gonna get those today, but I loved my songs. I like a variety of music. Let me see what's on there and I'll tell you.

1. Goody Two Shoes- Adam Ant
2. Booty Drop!
3. Cleaning out my Closet- Eminem
4. Run Rabbit Run- Eminem
5. Calling Baton Rouge- Garth Brooks
6. Our Lips are Sealed- The Go-Go's
7. Battle of New Orleans- Johnny Horton
8. A really cool Army Ranger Cadence that I downloaded. (My Daddy was in the 82nd Airborne and he'd like this one.)
9. Oh Mickey, You're so fine- Tony Basil ***Don't you DARE laugh at me, I'm just a poor fat woman!!!!!!
10. I love L.A.- Randy Newman
11. Snoopy and the Red Barron
12. Splish Splash by Elmo (My kids put that one on there for me!!!!)
13. Rock this town- Stray Cats
14. Here's a Quarter Call someone who cares- Travis Tritt

Now if that's not the most diverse thing you've ever heard in your life, I don't know what is!!!!! I know what you're thinking: "She put Garth Brooks and Eminem on the same CD?"


Post Script:
As I sat here and wrote to you, the sweat has dried, and the frustration has begun to dissipate, and I notice a smile on my face! I have a long way to go, but I really am proud of myself for getting up and walking. I have a feeling that I went a lot farther than a mile today...in many ways.