I havn't posted in almost a week, because I have something I need to say but don't wan't to say. I'm ashamed about this but I need to just come out and say it.
I have decided to be a walker for a while. I am really having a hard time with the run/walk. It's to the point where it is unenjoyable and I really almost hate it. I don't know if it's the weather being so hot/humid, or the amount of extra weight that I'm carrying, but I just really am not adjusting to it. My knees hurt every time I run. I can't breathe. I really am starting to hate it.
About 4 or 5 years ago, I did a run/walk program and it was really easy to go from one step to the next each week. It was fun. I really looked forward to it and enjoyed seeing my progress. Other than the obvious, (I am 38 and not 32 this time) the only 2 differences in now and then are (1) I weighed about 180 then, and (2) it was March when I began, and not August.
I am very sad about this because I look at it as a BIG BIG BIG failure. I still have a goal of completing a half-marathon, and I AM going to do it. I am just tweaking things a little bit right now. I think that if I walk for a while...until the weather is cooler, or until I drop about 15 or 20 pounds, I might ease into running much easier since I will have been walking all of that time.
I walked today and it was very fun. I walked 3 miles. I normally walk/run 2 miles. It took me about 48 minutes. Actually, that's about how long it would take me to run/walk it anyway, because it takes me 30 minutes to run/walk 2 miles.
Anyway, that's it for today.
Thanks for being a great listner,
Victoria
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Random Ramblings While Running
* If you eat a piece of cake while you are running, do those calories count?
* Are those people looking at me and wondering how a beached whale came to be running down their street?
* If I were in a car, I'd run that skinny-girl down and make it look like an accident!
*It is easier to eat a cheeseburger than it is to run a mile.
*My stopwatch is broken. Why is it that it goes so fast during the time that I am recovering and so slow while I am running?
*If I run really slow for my minute and a half, the time will go faster (WHAT???? Sometimes, my thought processes scare me!).
*Oh my gosh, that car just whizzed by me. I could get killed out here. I could eliminate that risk by staying in bed...it's much safer.
* Are those people looking at me and wondering how a beached whale came to be running down their street?
* If I were in a car, I'd run that skinny-girl down and make it look like an accident!
*It is easier to eat a cheeseburger than it is to run a mile.
*My stopwatch is broken. Why is it that it goes so fast during the time that I am recovering and so slow while I am running?
*If I run really slow for my minute and a half, the time will go faster (WHAT???? Sometimes, my thought processes scare me!).
*Oh my gosh, that car just whizzed by me. I could get killed out here. I could eliminate that risk by staying in bed...it's much safer.
What happened?
Ok...here's the deal. I ran Friday morning, lost my mind Friday during the day and ate like a pig (I posted that...about the crawfish). Here's the part you don't know...I went out Friday night and ate the same thing at the same place. Didn't run Sunday...ate like a pig.
Monday--Got up ready to run, couldn't find my stopwatch (not an ESSENTIAL piece of equipment...convenient not at all essential) and talked myself into not running. Ate like a pig.
Tuesday--Didn't run...ate like a pig.
The guilt from all of this is overwhelming. I don't know if I am putting too much pressure on myself saying that I MUST run a half in January. Maybe I should set a goal of a smaller race or a half a little farther out...or no goal at all...I don't know. Everything I've read in Runners World and those kiind of publications encourage you to pick a race and strive for it. That way, you're not just "running", you're running with a certain goal in mind.
I got up this morning and decided to weigh, just to see what kind of damage had been done. I am up to 208 pounds. I started at 211 and had gotten down to 205...now I'm back up to 208. THAT almost sent me back to bed this morning, but I just said "Hey FatGirl, do you want to gain it ALL back? Then get out and run."
I don't know if it is the depression that comes a week before my...well you know. I have posted this before, but I have severe pms. I have no patience, I am grumpy, I get anxiety and/or depression (not like a severe depression, more like a solemness, and I am less tolerant of myself than normal). I am on a special diet that was designed by Debra Hope-Reisedel, a dietician especially for PMS. It works, but not if you don't adhere to it.
Well, there it all is. That's what has been going on with me. Here's what I know but not what I feel: This is a small part of a long journey, you cannot pull a fatgirl off of the couch, stick her in some running shoes and expect that she will not make any mistakes. Keep running, it's going to work itself out in the end.
OH YEAH...I ALMOST FORGOT:
I RAN THIS MORNING. I did my "run 1:30/ walk 2:45". It was hard but I finished. Good job FatGirl!
Monday--Got up ready to run, couldn't find my stopwatch (not an ESSENTIAL piece of equipment...convenient not at all essential) and talked myself into not running. Ate like a pig.
Tuesday--Didn't run...ate like a pig.
The guilt from all of this is overwhelming. I don't know if I am putting too much pressure on myself saying that I MUST run a half in January. Maybe I should set a goal of a smaller race or a half a little farther out...or no goal at all...I don't know. Everything I've read in Runners World and those kiind of publications encourage you to pick a race and strive for it. That way, you're not just "running", you're running with a certain goal in mind.
I got up this morning and decided to weigh, just to see what kind of damage had been done. I am up to 208 pounds. I started at 211 and had gotten down to 205...now I'm back up to 208. THAT almost sent me back to bed this morning, but I just said "Hey FatGirl, do you want to gain it ALL back? Then get out and run."
I don't know if it is the depression that comes a week before my...well you know. I have posted this before, but I have severe pms. I have no patience, I am grumpy, I get anxiety and/or depression (not like a severe depression, more like a solemness, and I am less tolerant of myself than normal). I am on a special diet that was designed by Debra Hope-Reisedel, a dietician especially for PMS. It works, but not if you don't adhere to it.
Well, there it all is. That's what has been going on with me. Here's what I know but not what I feel: This is a small part of a long journey, you cannot pull a fatgirl off of the couch, stick her in some running shoes and expect that she will not make any mistakes. Keep running, it's going to work itself out in the end.
OH YEAH...I ALMOST FORGOT:
I RAN THIS MORNING. I did my "run 1:30/ walk 2:45". It was hard but I finished. Good job FatGirl!
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
FatGirl SLACKING
I am sorry to report to you that I have been eating too much and running/biking too little. I do not know if this is from stress or what it is from.
I have had a little talk with myself, and in the morning, I will be running again.
I'll let'cha know how it goes.
:(
V
I have had a little talk with myself, and in the morning, I will be running again.
I'll let'cha know how it goes.
:(
V
Friday, August 18, 2006
I fell WAY off the diet wagon
OMG...I had done so good. I had gotten up this morning and ran. Then after I dropped the children off, I came back home and rode my bike 4 miles. I got on the computer for a minute, and I started thinking that I really wanted some gumbo. Not just any gumbo, seafood gumbo from my FAVORITE restaurant. It is made perfectly, the roux is very dark and it is not a thick gumbo. (I think that if you're not from deep in the south, this whole thing may be lost on you...I apologize...no I don't, I'll just invite you over for some gumbo!)
Actually, the weather is much too hot for gumbo. Gumbo is something you eat when it's cold. I don't really know why, I guess b/c it's a hot dish and it's spicy. When it gets cold here, you'll hear people say "it's good gumbo weather".
Anyway, I started thinking of alternative things to eat. Nothing sounded quite as good as that gumbo. You may be thinking that gumbo does not constitute "falling WAY off the diet wagon". Well just wait...there's more!!!!!!! So I decided that I'd go to the restaurant and get the gumbo. THEN it occurred to me that never in my life have I ever gone to that restaurant that I haven't gotten seafood gumbo and CRAWFISH WANTONS. OH MY GOSH!!!!!! They are sinful. It is the most fattening and horrible for you thing in the world though. They take won-ton skin and inside of it, they put several different kind of cheeses and some crawfish, it is impecably seasoned and then, THEY DEEP FRY IT!!!!
My mouth started to water...then when I got there, I told the waitress my order, (gumbo, wantons and a Dr. Pepper) and while you are waiting, they bring you a BIG plate full of greasy garlic bread. It was all so good. I had no regrets (that makes me nervous...I SHOULD have regrets about THAT). If someone had tried to take it away from me, I'd have probably snapped their hand off!!!! It was SO good.
Somewhere inside of me, I feel...not guilty...scared. I don't want to be out of control with my eating again. I'm ok though, I'm going to try not to beat myself up too badly, I'll just make better choices starting tomorrow. (maybe tonight, I'll go and get the same thing for supper...only kidding...sort of!!!)
Well, ok...there you go. It's my first food confession. I've always said I'm going to write truthfully, even when it is not flattering, and this was definitely not flattering. I guess that this is a long weight-loss journey and it will be filled with many great choices and hopefully only a very few bad ones.
With Regret (but not nearly enough),
Victoria
Actually, the weather is much too hot for gumbo. Gumbo is something you eat when it's cold. I don't really know why, I guess b/c it's a hot dish and it's spicy. When it gets cold here, you'll hear people say "it's good gumbo weather".
Anyway, I started thinking of alternative things to eat. Nothing sounded quite as good as that gumbo. You may be thinking that gumbo does not constitute "falling WAY off the diet wagon". Well just wait...there's more!!!!!!! So I decided that I'd go to the restaurant and get the gumbo. THEN it occurred to me that never in my life have I ever gone to that restaurant that I haven't gotten seafood gumbo and CRAWFISH WANTONS. OH MY GOSH!!!!!! They are sinful. It is the most fattening and horrible for you thing in the world though. They take won-ton skin and inside of it, they put several different kind of cheeses and some crawfish, it is impecably seasoned and then, THEY DEEP FRY IT!!!!
My mouth started to water...then when I got there, I told the waitress my order, (gumbo, wantons and a Dr. Pepper) and while you are waiting, they bring you a BIG plate full of greasy garlic bread. It was all so good. I had no regrets (that makes me nervous...I SHOULD have regrets about THAT). If someone had tried to take it away from me, I'd have probably snapped their hand off!!!! It was SO good.
Somewhere inside of me, I feel...not guilty...scared. I don't want to be out of control with my eating again. I'm ok though, I'm going to try not to beat myself up too badly, I'll just make better choices starting tomorrow. (maybe tonight, I'll go and get the same thing for supper...only kidding...sort of!!!)
Well, ok...there you go. It's my first food confession. I've always said I'm going to write truthfully, even when it is not flattering, and this was definitely not flattering. I guess that this is a long weight-loss journey and it will be filled with many great choices and hopefully only a very few bad ones.
With Regret (but not nearly enough),
Victoria
Not So Bad This Time
Well, I just got back from my very-early-in-the-morning run, and it wasn't so bad this time. At the begining, it was almost enjoyable. At the end, it was tough, but not unbearable. I think that's how it's supposed to be.
Yesterday, I rode my bike. It was bad. It is very hot, and the only time I can ride is at about 9 or 10 in the morning, but yesterday, I got off kilter and I got up late, got the kids to school 30 minutes tardy (not the norm for me)...had a bunch to do, anyway, I didn't ride until noon. It was REALLY bad. I ride through the lakes, and there is a lot of shade, but still it was bad. It took me 45 minutes to go 5 miles. That is extrememly slow even for me.
Ok...it's time to get the children up. I have to get them fed and brushed (hair and teeth of course) and uniformed and out of the door within 45 minutes. Now that I think about it, I don't know if I have anything "breakfasty" in the house. I might have to stop at McDonalds and get them a biscuit or something. Oh gosh...that's another story altogether. When we stop at McDonalds for breakfast, the 6 year old is frustrating. It goes like this:
Me: Olivia, here we are at McDonalds. What would you like to eat?
Olivia: Ice Cream
Me: Oh, I mean for breakfast Olivia
Olivia: Ice Cream
Me: Livy, I am at the speaker and the lady is waiting. It is BREAKFAST time at McDonalds. What would you like?
Olivia: Nuggets
Me: They don't have nuggets at this time of the morning Livy. What do you want for breakfast. (by this time, I am begining to understand why they do not allow you to abandon OLDER children at the fire stations and police stations...that law only covers a mother who drops off an infant!!!!!)
Olivia: Pancakes
Me: That's it Olivia...I've had it! You know that I do not allow you to eat pancakes (and syrup) in my car.
Me(to the lady in the speaker) A biscuit please
Olivia: (At 4,000 decibels "AAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa WAAAAAAIIITTTTTTTTT...I want PANCAAAAAAKKKKKEEEESSSS!
At this point, I get my order and my son's order, and do not get Olivia anything, and she screames all the way to school.
NOTE: For those of you who think it would help to give her 2 acceptable choices and say "would you like this or that?" That doesn't work either. She still says "ice cream" and "pancakes"!!!
Well, let the fun begin! See you later,
Victoria
Yesterday, I rode my bike. It was bad. It is very hot, and the only time I can ride is at about 9 or 10 in the morning, but yesterday, I got off kilter and I got up late, got the kids to school 30 minutes tardy (not the norm for me)...had a bunch to do, anyway, I didn't ride until noon. It was REALLY bad. I ride through the lakes, and there is a lot of shade, but still it was bad. It took me 45 minutes to go 5 miles. That is extrememly slow even for me.
Ok...it's time to get the children up. I have to get them fed and brushed (hair and teeth of course) and uniformed and out of the door within 45 minutes. Now that I think about it, I don't know if I have anything "breakfasty" in the house. I might have to stop at McDonalds and get them a biscuit or something. Oh gosh...that's another story altogether. When we stop at McDonalds for breakfast, the 6 year old is frustrating. It goes like this:
Me: Olivia, here we are at McDonalds. What would you like to eat?
Olivia: Ice Cream
Me: Oh, I mean for breakfast Olivia
Olivia: Ice Cream
Me: Livy, I am at the speaker and the lady is waiting. It is BREAKFAST time at McDonalds. What would you like?
Olivia: Nuggets
Me: They don't have nuggets at this time of the morning Livy. What do you want for breakfast. (by this time, I am begining to understand why they do not allow you to abandon OLDER children at the fire stations and police stations...that law only covers a mother who drops off an infant!!!!!)
Olivia: Pancakes
Me: That's it Olivia...I've had it! You know that I do not allow you to eat pancakes (and syrup) in my car.
Me(to the lady in the speaker) A biscuit please
Olivia: (At 4,000 decibels "AAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa WAAAAAAIIITTTTTTTTT...I want PANCAAAAAAKKKKKEEEESSSS!
At this point, I get my order and my son's order, and do not get Olivia anything, and she screames all the way to school.
NOTE: For those of you who think it would help to give her 2 acceptable choices and say "would you like this or that?" That doesn't work either. She still says "ice cream" and "pancakes"!!!
Well, let the fun begin! See you later,
Victoria
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Blaaaahhhh
I got up this morning at 5:30 again, but it was significantly less easy than last time! and I ran. I only ran one mile though. It was really hard this morning. I got winded extremely quickly, and the humidity was kicking my butt. I just couldn't go any further. I run a 1 mile loop twice and so at the end of the first mile, I am passing my house. Secretly, I ALWAYS want to find an excuse to stop after the first mile, but I never do. I just really felt kind of bad this morning.
I had planned to ride my bike today, but I'm just not sure at this point. Maybe after I've had my coffee and my breakfast, I'll reconsider. I just don't want to get far away on my bike and get sick or anything. Maybe I'll just ride a slow ride near where I park...I don't know we'll see.
I got an mp3 player yesterday. I really like it. About 2 weeks ago, I was reading someone's blog, I think it was Barbara's, and she talked about that her mp3 player had some sample songs already programmed into it when she got it, and how obnoxious that was. That happened to me, and I can't figure out how to get them OUT. I looked at Barb's blog, and I couldn't find that post. I'm going to have to figure out what to do about that.
Oh...by the way...I put a new pic on my profile. My husband said that the other one was in no way reflective of how I look and that this one is more representative of me. (Actually, he said "Victoria, that picture is ugly...you don't look like that...get that ugly picture off of there!!!!!!") My husband's communications skills are amazing. He is so diplomatic. I'm sure pretty soon he'll be an ambassador to some country somewhere with those skills!!!!! Anyway...a new picture is there!
Ok...Off to wake up the children for school.
I hope your day is great.
Sincerely,
Victoria
I had planned to ride my bike today, but I'm just not sure at this point. Maybe after I've had my coffee and my breakfast, I'll reconsider. I just don't want to get far away on my bike and get sick or anything. Maybe I'll just ride a slow ride near where I park...I don't know we'll see.
I got an mp3 player yesterday. I really like it. About 2 weeks ago, I was reading someone's blog, I think it was Barbara's, and she talked about that her mp3 player had some sample songs already programmed into it when she got it, and how obnoxious that was. That happened to me, and I can't figure out how to get them OUT. I looked at Barb's blog, and I couldn't find that post. I'm going to have to figure out what to do about that.
Oh...by the way...I put a new pic on my profile. My husband said that the other one was in no way reflective of how I look and that this one is more representative of me. (Actually, he said "Victoria, that picture is ugly...you don't look like that...get that ugly picture off of there!!!!!!") My husband's communications skills are amazing. He is so diplomatic. I'm sure pretty soon he'll be an ambassador to some country somewhere with those skills!!!!! Anyway...a new picture is there!
Ok...Off to wake up the children for school.
I hope your day is great.
Sincerely,
Victoria
Monday, August 14, 2006
Oh my Gosh I Almost Forgot the Most Important Thing
Oh my GOSH how could I forget to tell you this...Today is one month (to the date) that I started my program. I weighed right before I ran this morning and I'm down to 205!!!!!! Not too shabby! Still a fatgirl but moving in the right direction. 6 pounds my first month. Wow! I have lost more on previous diets but I'll take 6 pounds with a smile.
Just wanted to let you know.
Sincerely,
Victoria
Just wanted to let you know.
Sincerely,
Victoria
1st Day of School
Hi, good morning. I hope all is well with you. Today is the first day of school for my children and hence, my first day of my new routine: running at 5:30 in the morning. It wasn't so bad today because I have a lot of adrenaline right now anyway. I guess b/c it's the first day of school and I have the "first day jitters". I'm worried I'll get them there late, or that we don't have all of the supplies (which we dont, because EVERY Wal-Mart in town is out of pencil boxes...I don't know why...they new people were going to need them!).
Anyway, I didn't have any trouble getting up and the run went ok. I pooped out on my last rep. and I couldn't do the whole minute and a half, I only did about 45 seconds. I really think that by the end of September, begining of October, I'll see great improvements. I say that because, here in South Louisiana, the humidity is KILLER even at 5:30 in the morning. You sweat just walking to the end of the driveway to get the paper. Also, by the end of September, I will weigh less and will move better. I've said it before and I'll say it again: there is nothing graceful about a 200 pound woman lumbering down the street!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok...Off to school! I have to get the children up at 6:30 and leave at 7:15. I hope your day goes well. I'm going to go and ride my bike at the lake today I think. If I do, I'll let'cha know how it went this evening.
CUL8R,
Victoria
Anyway, I didn't have any trouble getting up and the run went ok. I pooped out on my last rep. and I couldn't do the whole minute and a half, I only did about 45 seconds. I really think that by the end of September, begining of October, I'll see great improvements. I say that because, here in South Louisiana, the humidity is KILLER even at 5:30 in the morning. You sweat just walking to the end of the driveway to get the paper. Also, by the end of September, I will weigh less and will move better. I've said it before and I'll say it again: there is nothing graceful about a 200 pound woman lumbering down the street!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok...Off to school! I have to get the children up at 6:30 and leave at 7:15. I hope your day goes well. I'm going to go and ride my bike at the lake today I think. If I do, I'll let'cha know how it went this evening.
CUL8R,
Victoria
Friday, August 11, 2006
Yummmmmmm
We just got back from our "date", which consisted of going out to eat and then going to Wal-Mart and buying school supplies!!! Not too romantic, but it is a lot easier to buy the supplies when the children are NOT with us.
We were going to go see "World Trade Center" at the movie, but we couldn't make the time coordinate with the sitter. We had to pick the children up at 9:30, and the movie ended at 9:24. We could not have made it across town to get them in time. We don't have a person who watches them, our church sponsors a thing once a month where they watch the children so that the moms and dads can go out. They close at 9:30, so the movie was a "no-go".
The dinner was GREAT! We had EXCELLENT service and the food was delicious. We got our food really fast too. When our waiter first arrived to take our drink order, we gave him our food order too (we always get the same thing at Chili's, so there is no need to look at the menu). We got our drinks in about 5 minutes, about 3 minutes after that, we got our appetizer, and before we even ate any of our chips and salsa, our food came! It was great!
I hope all was well with you too. I'll be running again tomorrow, and I'll tell you how it went.
Have a great night.
Sincerely,
Victoria
We were going to go see "World Trade Center" at the movie, but we couldn't make the time coordinate with the sitter. We had to pick the children up at 9:30, and the movie ended at 9:24. We could not have made it across town to get them in time. We don't have a person who watches them, our church sponsors a thing once a month where they watch the children so that the moms and dads can go out. They close at 9:30, so the movie was a "no-go".
The dinner was GREAT! We had EXCELLENT service and the food was delicious. We got our food really fast too. When our waiter first arrived to take our drink order, we gave him our food order too (we always get the same thing at Chili's, so there is no need to look at the menu). We got our drinks in about 5 minutes, about 3 minutes after that, we got our appetizer, and before we even ate any of our chips and salsa, our food came! It was great!
I hope all was well with you too. I'll be running again tomorrow, and I'll tell you how it went.
Have a great night.
Sincerely,
Victoria
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Good Run
Wow! That was a pretty fun run. I did 7 reps of "run 1:30/walk 2:45" and it felt ok. I think I'm gonna stay with this one for a week or two, and then we'll see what happens. Oh...cool...I just did the math on that and if I'm not too far off it's 29 minutes 45 seconds. That's perfect, so that means that I still did a 30 minute run. Great.
I made a bad food choice tonight and filled up with junk. Now I'm not hungry for my real supper (probably just as well). I don't do that very often, but I am not 100% at my diet either. That's ok. I guess I'm doing better than I was a month ago.
The kids start school next week, and I'm going to go to the lake and ride my bike. I can't wait. I'm going to run every other day when I first get up and then on the other days, I'm going to ride my bike. Riding my bike clears my mind (running just makes me pant! but I'm sure that'll change soon).
Oh! Guess who I saw on my run tonight...Oh c'mon guess, it'll be fun! Oh ok, I'll tell you! I saw Hal. Remember Hal from the other day...the nice man that gave me the glass of water? He said that he wants to exercise everyday like me! Hey...that was cool! He walks 2 blocks and he wants to go further soon.
Well, my poor kids are starving to death because their mommy hasn't fed them yet (Don't look at the clock please!) It's really late to be feeding kids...any good mom would have done that before she ran, but by the time I got back from the store tonight, it was almost dark and I wanted to hurry and run.
Ok...Have a great night and I'll see you tomorrow.
Sincerely,
Victoria
I made a bad food choice tonight and filled up with junk. Now I'm not hungry for my real supper (probably just as well). I don't do that very often, but I am not 100% at my diet either. That's ok. I guess I'm doing better than I was a month ago.
The kids start school next week, and I'm going to go to the lake and ride my bike. I can't wait. I'm going to run every other day when I first get up and then on the other days, I'm going to ride my bike. Riding my bike clears my mind (running just makes me pant! but I'm sure that'll change soon).
Oh! Guess who I saw on my run tonight...Oh c'mon guess, it'll be fun! Oh ok, I'll tell you! I saw Hal. Remember Hal from the other day...the nice man that gave me the glass of water? He said that he wants to exercise everyday like me! Hey...that was cool! He walks 2 blocks and he wants to go further soon.
Well, my poor kids are starving to death because their mommy hasn't fed them yet (Don't look at the clock please!) It's really late to be feeding kids...any good mom would have done that before she ran, but by the time I got back from the store tonight, it was almost dark and I wanted to hurry and run.
Ok...Have a great night and I'll see you tomorrow.
Sincerely,
Victoria
Let the eating begin!
Ok...It's official...we have a sitter for the children for tomorrow night, and my husband and I are going out to dinner! I have been (about 80%) dilligent with my diet for the past 3 weeks, and tomorrow, I will EAT!
We are going to my favorite place (Chili's) and I already know what I'm going to get. Shrimp Fajitas and a Presidente Margarita! Oh my GOSH! I am sooooo happy.
I don't know if you can tell, but we NEVER get a sitter. I think the last time we had a sitter was 4 months ago, and before that, it had been like years!
I am going to run tonight and I'll let'cha know how it goes when I'm done.
Have a great afternoon.
With Great Anticipation of a Great Meal,
Victoria
We are going to my favorite place (Chili's) and I already know what I'm going to get. Shrimp Fajitas and a Presidente Margarita! Oh my GOSH! I am sooooo happy.
I don't know if you can tell, but we NEVER get a sitter. I think the last time we had a sitter was 4 months ago, and before that, it had been like years!
I am going to run tonight and I'll let'cha know how it goes when I'm done.
Have a great afternoon.
With Great Anticipation of a Great Meal,
Victoria
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Having A Hard Time Finding Myself
My run last night was a bit confusing for me. I started with intentions of doning my "run 1 minute/walk 2:45" but after the first run, I didn't want to stop at 1 minute, so I continued to 2 minutes, then I didn't rest for 3 minutes, I rested for 2 minutes. I continued after that with "run 2/ walk 3" for 5 reps. I ended up only exercising for about 24 minutes instead of 30 because the increase is too much.
I know I should probably stick with the "run 1/ walk 2:45" for a few more times, or maybe "run 1:30/ walk 3:30 X 6 reps." It funny about me...I'm not a competitive person with other people, but I am with myself. If I am playing a game against someone and they win, I am genuinely happy for them, and I don't feel like I should play harder next time. I don't really care if I win or if they win. I lack a competitiveness in regards to other people. I dont know...it's a quality I've never had. I'm just not competitive w/ other people.
However, I am very competitive with MYSELF. I want to beat my old record, or do better in things than I did last time. I always push myself to do the best I can. It's not a bad way to be, but I think I just need to be more patient with myself when it comes to running. It's still very early in the game for me as a runner. I think I'm just having a hard time finding a pace that feels good and a distance that feels good right now.
The good thing is that I am not quitting any time soon so I'll have plenty of time to figure it all out.
I hope all is well with you and yours
Sincerely,
Victoria
I know I should probably stick with the "run 1/ walk 2:45" for a few more times, or maybe "run 1:30/ walk 3:30 X 6 reps." It funny about me...I'm not a competitive person with other people, but I am with myself. If I am playing a game against someone and they win, I am genuinely happy for them, and I don't feel like I should play harder next time. I don't really care if I win or if they win. I lack a competitiveness in regards to other people. I dont know...it's a quality I've never had. I'm just not competitive w/ other people.
However, I am very competitive with MYSELF. I want to beat my old record, or do better in things than I did last time. I always push myself to do the best I can. It's not a bad way to be, but I think I just need to be more patient with myself when it comes to running. It's still very early in the game for me as a runner. I think I'm just having a hard time finding a pace that feels good and a distance that feels good right now.
The good thing is that I am not quitting any time soon so I'll have plenty of time to figure it all out.
I hope all is well with you and yours
Sincerely,
Victoria
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Short Run Tonight
Usually when I do my "run 1/walk 2:45", it takes me 2 miles. Tonight, the bottom fell out of the sky right before the end of the first mile. I had my phone with me and my walkman so I stopped. Most of the time, I am looking for an excuse to stop at the end of the first mile, but tonight, I was moving right along. I toyed with taking off my walkman and bringing it in and continuing my run, but I'm glad I didn't, because it started to lightning a minute or two after I stopped.
That's all 4 2nite.
I hope all is well with you.
Sincerely,
Victoria
That's all 4 2nite.
I hope all is well with you.
Sincerely,
Victoria
Friday, August 04, 2006
This is the hardest thing I've ever done in my life
...there's just no other way to say it. It is just HARD. I have to talk myself out of quitting from one minute to the next during the first half of my run...I always feel better on the 2nd half, because I'm almost done.
My workout is not set too high because I can run the 1 minute ok and I'm not out of breath anymore when it is time to run again...it's just that this is something I've never really done before, and it is so different from what I am accustomed to (which is nothing).
I didn't get a chance to get my bike tire fixed yesterday, so I'm going to go by there tomorrow, and I'm going to ride. I love riding my bike. I feel like I am flying. Maybe one day when I can run a long ways, I'll do a duathlon. THAT sounds like fun.
I don't want to sound like I am a whiney baby, or a complainer or anything because I am probably one of the toughest people I know. I've been through a lot in my life, I have a great attitude, and I know that this is going to get better once my body gets conditioned to it.
When I started this blog, I promised myself that I would always be 100% honest with myself and with whoever chose to read it, and that I would never cut corners. If it's hard, I'll say it's hard, if it's a breeze, I'll say that too. If I skip a bunch of workouts and eat a bunch of cheeseburgers, you can look for me to write about that as well. I want this blog to be an accurate depiction of my journey from couch-potato fatgirl to half-marathon runner (and beyond!), and the truth of it is that I am very out of shape and getting into it is not a lot of fun...the benefits will be great, but I don't think anyone ever told me it woud be easy...and it isn't.
I hope all is well with you and yours tonight. As always, thanks for listening.
With Sincerity,
Victoria
My workout is not set too high because I can run the 1 minute ok and I'm not out of breath anymore when it is time to run again...it's just that this is something I've never really done before, and it is so different from what I am accustomed to (which is nothing).
I didn't get a chance to get my bike tire fixed yesterday, so I'm going to go by there tomorrow, and I'm going to ride. I love riding my bike. I feel like I am flying. Maybe one day when I can run a long ways, I'll do a duathlon. THAT sounds like fun.
I don't want to sound like I am a whiney baby, or a complainer or anything because I am probably one of the toughest people I know. I've been through a lot in my life, I have a great attitude, and I know that this is going to get better once my body gets conditioned to it.
When I started this blog, I promised myself that I would always be 100% honest with myself and with whoever chose to read it, and that I would never cut corners. If it's hard, I'll say it's hard, if it's a breeze, I'll say that too. If I skip a bunch of workouts and eat a bunch of cheeseburgers, you can look for me to write about that as well. I want this blog to be an accurate depiction of my journey from couch-potato fatgirl to half-marathon runner (and beyond!), and the truth of it is that I am very out of shape and getting into it is not a lot of fun...the benefits will be great, but I don't think anyone ever told me it woud be easy...and it isn't.
I hope all is well with you and yours tonight. As always, thanks for listening.
With Sincerity,
Victoria
Thursday, August 03, 2006
WEIGH To Go FatGirl
I have been running and eating properly for 2 weeks now. I weighed this morning and I have lost 4 pounds! I now weigh 207. Hardly down to my supermodel weight, but I'm 4 pounds less than I was 2 weeks ago. I didn't gain it all in 2 weeks so I won't lose it all in 2 weeks but I am very proud of myself. Plus, I can walk/run for 30 minutes without dying...in just 2 short weeks.
I want to go ride my bike today. I have to go get my tire fixed. When I went riding Sunday, something must have happened because my tire is busted. I have to go to the bike place and see about it. While I am there, I am going to ask him if he can show me what is wrong and how he fixes it, that way I can know more about my bike. I plan to ride a lot, and I need to know what to do if something goes wrong. I don't have any idea what is wrong with it. The only thing I can think is that while I was riding Sunday, I stopped and put air in my tires and I might have put too much. I don't know. We'll see what the guy says today.
Ok. I'm on my way to start my day.
Have a great day,
Victoria
I want to go ride my bike today. I have to go get my tire fixed. When I went riding Sunday, something must have happened because my tire is busted. I have to go to the bike place and see about it. While I am there, I am going to ask him if he can show me what is wrong and how he fixes it, that way I can know more about my bike. I plan to ride a lot, and I need to know what to do if something goes wrong. I don't have any idea what is wrong with it. The only thing I can think is that while I was riding Sunday, I stopped and put air in my tires and I might have put too much. I don't know. We'll see what the guy says today.
Ok. I'm on my way to start my day.
Have a great day,
Victoria
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Back in the saddle again
I just got back from running. It felt SOOO good. Oh man! I haven't run since Saturday. I rode my bike Sunday and Monday and Tuesday I felt awful. I hate to say it in mixed company so I'll just say that there is one week out of the month (sometimes a WHOLE week, sometimes just 3 or 4 days) when I feel so awful that I am almost incapacitated. I don't know why it is so bad for me. Some women just breeze through it, but not me.
The diet that I am on now should help me because it was designed by a nutritionist for PMS and PMDD specifically and she helps a lot of women with this. She says that usually after about 90 days on the diet, you can feel a change. I'm hoping that's true.
Apparently the rest did me some good though. I really did have a great run. It was hard but not unbearable. I did my 8 repetitions of "run 1 minute/ walk 2:45" and it really felt perfect. After the 4th repetition, my recovery was about 7 and a half minutes because I looped back by my house and came in to get my walkman wires untangled and get Thunder some water. I think it made the 2nd half of the run much easier.
I really can't believe that I don't feel exhausted or anything. I feel good. I am so proud of myself.
Has anyone tried the Asian Salad at McDonalds? I ate one today for the first time and it was downright enjoyable. Usually I just suffer through a salad, but this one has all kind of stuff in it, and the dressing they give you is so good too. It filled me up from lunch to supper. It was great.
Well, I'm gonna go tuck the kiddos into bed.
I hope all is well with you.
Sincerely,
Victoria
The diet that I am on now should help me because it was designed by a nutritionist for PMS and PMDD specifically and she helps a lot of women with this. She says that usually after about 90 days on the diet, you can feel a change. I'm hoping that's true.
Apparently the rest did me some good though. I really did have a great run. It was hard but not unbearable. I did my 8 repetitions of "run 1 minute/ walk 2:45" and it really felt perfect. After the 4th repetition, my recovery was about 7 and a half minutes because I looped back by my house and came in to get my walkman wires untangled and get Thunder some water. I think it made the 2nd half of the run much easier.
I really can't believe that I don't feel exhausted or anything. I feel good. I am so proud of myself.
Has anyone tried the Asian Salad at McDonalds? I ate one today for the first time and it was downright enjoyable. Usually I just suffer through a salad, but this one has all kind of stuff in it, and the dressing they give you is so good too. It filled me up from lunch to supper. It was great.
Well, I'm gonna go tuck the kiddos into bed.
I hope all is well with you.
Sincerely,
Victoria
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)